Love not Hate.

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Le Tout Nouveau Testament (The Brand New Testament)

They say “people who are awake during the hours of two am to four am are the loneliest” but what if I told you I’m not one of them? I’m not lonely or alone. Neither I’m sleepless or tired. I’m not finishing some goddamn paper like I used to back in college. Maybe I’m just having an existential crisis. Read More »

Missing the joy of creating worlds out of words.

I miss the joy of writing. I miss typing on my keyboard raging endlessly and carelessly, weaving words I couldn’t understand but knows very well because it came from the deep recesses of my heart with a mix of intense emotions. I miss being in my safe zone. A place to steam off the anger, frustrations, and the sadness whenever anxiety attacks and depression kicks in. I just miss creating worlds out of words.

New day, New dawn.

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I have been struggling to find my purpose and identity for years and it never occurred to me that by surrounding myself with people and things that I love, I’d eventually find what I’ve been looking for. I admit, I am not good at many things and I try to excel with what I can get my hands on. My mother signed me up in a ballet class when I was five but after a few months, she had to pull me out because of a misunderstanding. I used to play the piano when I was twelve and eventually learned how to play the guitar but as the days passed by, I’ve grown tired of practicing and started to lose interest in reading the notes. I wish I had the enthusiasm and energy to finish what I started back then so maybe, I might have something that I can be proud of today.

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